A good friend had written a very motivating email after reading one of my posts. I loved it so much that I wanted to share some excerpts with you
Kahlil Gibran in his ‘The Prophet’.
‘Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either your sails or your rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas.
For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.
Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing;
And let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.’
The problem is that passion drives us and reason rebukes us occasionally, but we continue on the path we have chosen because that is what makes us different. I have always felt that our life on Earth is a cosmic joke with no reasonable explanation. We can only try to make sense of it by making a difference. And for sure, you cannot make a difference without choosing paths which may be painful in the short term but fulfilling in the long.
The problem with people like you (like us!) is that we push ourselves to our limits, just to make a ripple, a change, a dent in the fabric of time, just to say, ‘I was here’. And this always is associated with a modicum of pain. But as surely as day follows night, happiness follows the pain.
To quote Kahlil Gibran again,
‘Your pain is the breaking of the shell
that encloses your understanding.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break,that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.
And could you keep your heart in wonder
at the daily miracles of your life, your pain
would not seem less wondrous than your joy;
And you would accept the seasons of your
heart, even as you have always accepted
the seasons that pass over your fields.
And you would watch with serenity
through the winters of your grief.’
I saw the pictures of your champions on their bookstore picnic and their smiles- you do know you are making a difference, right? So to answer your question, ‘Why am I doing what I am doing now?’, you are because you have been lucky enough to make a dent in the fabric of time.